its been a WHILE i didnt layan my blog . hahaha

well. .hye blog :)

theres so much thgs goin on around me now.

happy sad love laughter tears lies. .disappointment .

now im left alone . everythg seems like fading away. .

im confused myself . whats happening to me

am i alright now?is it oke already?is it worsening?

all i noe is . im all alone . i feel numb

how should i start it over ?

should i hear what others said. .

eventually , i'll be left and alone .

my life crushed so badly for a couple of times now .

it hurts . it hurts so bad

maybe i am meant to be this way . feel this shits .

aku sik kuat . aku lelah

im tired of all this godamn feelings . it just wont go away .

could this be more worse ?

please. . .somebody. . .

im too tired .

can somebody please say to me. . 

"eo. .ur not alone anymore . nobodys gonna hurt u anymore"

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1.03.01

why do u hav to make me feel this way .
u make me feel like shit !
i just HATE that i love u .
knk tk happen all of a sudden .
knk aku bok sdar knek??
urgh. . .sial jk asa .
ko tauk sik???!
i tod im starting a new life forgeting all the shits that happened to me .
but now im stuck . stuck on u .
wat shud i do damn it .
aku xmk polah langkah nk slah ! aku xmk dtuduh pa2 .
n that. . .will not happen .

everybody got their new sheyt in the end.

wow..

speechless..haha

im happy fer u..dats ol.

like i've ever said.

u'll be happy sumday :) n u did change

to be a better one kn ? great..

guess i cant say i love u anymore . haha . jokes :p

but serious -_-"

sorry i've lied to u bout sumtin . haha . but its fer da best

so dun take me wrong . 

well,i've told ya rite . im juz not gud enuf fer ya . im juz sum sucks losers . huu so sad

sori im stupid sori im an idiot n sori im a faker?to u,i guess?better not . hak

i hate to pretend :p mcm kurak kurak dalam besen ,purak purak esen esen . LOLs

yeahh..juz wanna say congrats ! proud of u

dats all yaw . from a loser u ever knew .  

p/s : coolest loser u'll ever known  :)

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1.03.01

im bored..now lets merapu..

its 2 am now..

damn..im so bored..tak mk tito sa ni.

bkn tak pat., tak mok sjak.wuwu*nguap

i've been thinkin..wat a day i've been thru today..

i mean yesterday coz its now 2 in tha mornin :p

watever...hurmm..i've been thinkin..

seems like everything wuz so happy..but i felt like theres sumtin weird.

feels like ' wth m i duin ' yeahh..kira mcm itu lhh tadik..

i felt happy with the one im spendin my time with..

at tha same time im thinkin of sumbody else too.

OMG totally suites thinking of you by katy perry -__-

watever...i dun care..i'll act like i dun care.

wat i care is to be happy with myself and tha person spendin their time with me

and..as long as i didnt hurt anybody's feelings :( i dun want dat!

im so tired of getting everyone hurt..coz in the end i'll feel tha guilt.MF guilty.

am i supposed to be happy with all i ever wanted?

it comes with a price..

angels cry

listenig to this...brings back old memories..

not dat old i guess..haha

i still remember singing this song in tha class last year..*sigh

woops!enuf crapping in tha midst of kengantokan :p

its 3 am already

regrets..

hurmm..cant turn back now..

i've chose tiz way..so i should go on with tiz way..n to another one...

juz not the past..

wat m i thinkin of??

stupidity.....

this is wat i dun wan , never wanted to ever happened .

urgghh.why cant tiz damn feelin go away.

i miss eu .

i wanna run..but only far enuf till u forgot about me and my stupidity.

its my motherfukin fault..its all my fault.ur not the one to blame..thres nutin wrong about u..

its just me..

i might said dat i wanna run..but i dun wanna forget about u.

u were once my life.i dun wanna hurt u nomore

its killing me..to c u hurt..

wish dat u noe..dat i never lost u in my memory.

sesungguhnya masa dpn boleh menemukn kita lagi

i'll appreciate it.. 

but maybe..by dat time..u've change..to a better one.

aku tidak mengharapkan kamu mengingatiku.sesungguhnya aku gembira

jika masa depan ditakdirkan untukmu begitu.aku gembira.

i'll be happy :)

its april...1st APRIL!

kejadian pertama~

trynna fool me...i fool eu back!hek....

tu le...nk fool aku..p die yg kne blek..seypek...gk sa!

cian adek aku sorg tuhh....:)

hurmmm....kt solah tdi plan nk fool sygkuh marie...p xjd plak...

coz die dh kne plak an adek aku tuh...wahwahwah

kejadian kedua~

smangat pge skul ptg td!huu...

pk ade training bola jaring p xda lak?!adeh2...

ituu satu hal....satu hal lgi...pk cmne nk blek?!

hak2...lwak gak kalu d'pk2kn...g skul bkn men smgat smpai x pk pn cmne nk blek.

gila~~nindak -.-"

dh ler mnyempat teckto kt bus stop..mcm owg gila.haha!jackass~

org tngok pn naek heran..wakakaka.dulik lhh...xda wat gangguan pn kn~

hem2...dh lh tyme pk2 cmne nk blek td..kiteorg dh spakat nk tggalkn si GIGI tuhh

hahaha...bkn men klakar lg glagat dieorg xsbar nk soh si GIGI tu blek...jln kaki...sorg2..

si GIGI tu pn satu...ade ke ptot disrohnye kiteorg nihh tmnkan die..kalu dkat xde hal bai...ni jaoh gila babeng!

apa lu engat kiteorg nih ama lu karhh....

aku dh kol grek aku amik sbnanya..

p dieorg xnk si GIGI tu join..klakar giler arkk..dieorg tuhh bgik mcm2 alasan.haha!

smue men cover2 an si GIGI tuhh...haha.

last2 grek aku smpai...betapa masinye mulut sygkuh marie tuhh...full plak keta!

mcm bwak satu kmpong...wakakaka.tapi puas gak ati dieorg..bab dpt knekn si GIGI tu

adeh2...gila~

lelah ehh!yajak..hee :)